Mirroring my flaws, only reflects my perfection.

Fears have always prevented me from facing the mirror. I discovered a method to focus on everything but myself, appreciating the beauty in everything else but me.

I seem to have forgotten my identity, or perhaps I never truly discovered it. I have lost my path to authenticity, along with the hope of one day being content to come home and truly see myself for who I am, unaffected by others' opinions.

Health professionals would suggest a different perspective, moulding an identity for me that they defined. I never had the chance to actualise my true potential; instead, I was only presented with challenges to survive as a mere existence.

Being labeled and then accepting that label as your identity can be a challenging journey, as it means defining yourself based on someone else's perception of you.

The life you are about to lead is what you once sought to transform. Sometimes, I ponder if when people say, "you're still not happy," it's due to making the wrong decisions.

My truth is that no one can define me, but being coerced into a false reality that distorts happiness, and manipulated into believing a choice was wrong, well... the healthcare experts exchanged my joy for sorrow. So, who truly isn't happy now?

The years of seeking health professionals to tick off each agenda to ensure a process for my life is made, comes with years of personal questions that are an attack for truth, and all you can do is mould yourself into a survivor to endure the painful moments.I understand that I will never become a biological male. I am aware of my identity, and I do not require validation from someone without life experience to define my purpose. These reasons are why I sought to move away from this reality.

Dear mother, I run from you, not because of you, but for you.. so you can live freely without the worry of my tears, that i spent years holding back so you could smile. I fought for you to not see pain, now I live only with pain. the trauma of adolescence because of small minded people is the reason I have never looked into the mirror.

You have shown me a unique strength that is beyond comprehension, and the self-awareness I have gained through your love is the very essence of a mother's purpose.

I find the mirror my flaws, only reflects my perfection.